Monday, September 29, 2003 11:40 p.m.
sat went to ms chen's hse w/ joe, wx, cher, jy, jas, kl, cl go see 1 month old kyra aaawwww so cute! sleep v. cute, drink milk v. cute, sit in ms chen's arms v. cute, burp v. cute, smile v. cute :D nv knew babies were so small, and look so delicate and little :D harh and so small already got so many high hopes placed on her... haha... muz jia you k? ;) but most impt follow ur dreams and lead ur own life, k kyra?
ms chen's maltese cookie so guai- nv bark, will sit in ur lap for as long as u want to, nv struggle- hear that, mintie? oh well but I guess dey were bred for diff. reasons la. mintie is bred to run around the whole day barking at sheep :S oh well.
den today juz watch the 9pm channel 8 show. wo jia you si ge bao or smth liddat- woohoo even more little babies! ok another career choice- if I dun end up working with horses and other animals I tink I shall take care of babies, like a midwife or nurse working in the baby ward or smth :) but I dun really like children, just babies. So will work with 100% babies :)

Thursday, September 18, 2003 07:20 p.m.
I want to get into CT. I noe ma'ams keep saying as long as you got passion and attitude, it's ok, but... you still can't ignore the skills and time factor. Especially time. I seem to be running out of it. Fast.

Thursday, September 18, 2003 07:15 p.m.
We did pretty well for Horizon Challenge :) everything went on quite smoothly la. B35 rox!!! See all the effort put in during the hols every single day being put to use, a lot of chen2 jiu4 gan3 one noe :) den all the exhaustion pent-up from the hols came around after hc... you noe abt the saying u don't really feel u r tired until it's over? smth liddat. blearhz so tired. 3pm den had to go for cousin's wedding :P feel so guilty, nv help clear up tt much :P

Monday, September 8, 2003 10:58 p.m.
Actually come online with lotsa stuff to blog about, but now dun wan to blog any more, *emotionally tired* and physically too anyway. Go to sch from 7.45-7.45, and see my sister rotting at home, she doesn't have to go back even ONE day for her CCA... goodness. Not like I am jealous or anything, just feel so tired, and see her so perky makes me feel even more tired :P
First sense smth wrong when G4+tagalong (btw dey change tagalong liaoz) m's come to np room want to see 36 NCOs... that time sqms all haf lessons :S onli me and sh ard... tok the relationship prob thingie, honestly didn't really think much of it actualli... coz at first m's quite serious one, den in the later parts dey start to tok crap and joke and self-entertain themselves...(~as usual...) tok finish go back np room do proposal for hc do hw [thx sh for the adaptor from library- ken listen to radio now :)], sqms came back from lessons and library... while having hc meeting/briefing den joe tell us sec 2s want to see us later. CI haf meeting with us finish (thank you very much for wearing jeans this time- I am much relieved, and dis is not sarca horz) den well, we met. actually, just want to sae:
good that you all open up and clear up the misunderstandings you have between us. To me... the first step to solve all this problems is clear, honest communication. not through blogs and gossip through mutual friends or such... but really sit down face-to-face and talk. Honestly speaking didn't expect it to be such an emotional meeting, but, on hindsight, I tink taking into account everything that has happened, its quite understandable and inevitable actually... Dunno whether you are now more comfortable with us, hope you all are :) and the protective of your own squad is very very true. when you take a certain squad, you, hmm, tend to develop feelings for that squad and will have some sort of biasedness towards other sqds... realise that the pple hu said hurting comments are not your NCOs? Because sometimes they don't know a sqd well enough then form opinions liao... (hrmmm... reminds me of someone else- nvm besides the point) argh seem to be repeating wad has alreadi been said, wun repeat animore.
Dun over-analyse wad you hear okay? Dun tink too much as well, some things are said in a fit of anger, a sudden outburst, and the people who say them sometimes dun really mean wad they say... and... please remember that we will always be one unit, one unit made up of all 3 batches of US... okay? we will never, never, never leave you out intentionally, hope you will always remember that. Dun tink that ever again... coz its very untrue
I really dunno if you all still got stuff to talk about, seems like still got, but really, if you really need to talk to us, go ahead, k? and... dun tink that your squad is alone... it is a phenomena (see below) that happens to every batch (dis time no skipping one), in slightly different ways, but basically the essence is the same. Tonite go have a good sleep, dun tink so much, things may be clearer in the morning :)

"thot bubble: sec 2s are really like us ('88 batch onli) in a mainstream sorta way... Grow up very fast, think a lot, feel a lot... but of course without the bitching, the defiance towards authority, the mediocre grades... ok forget it. dey are not like us, which is, in a way, good."

Monday, September 8, 2003 10:37 p.m.
Haiz... dint come online for a while, then a whole flurry of things can happen. Goodness. Juz want to say I not the type to get involved in dis kind of nasty bickering and squabbling... I'm quite a sui2 he2 kind of person,(*screws up face in effort to remember) dun think I have ever pissed anyone off with angry heated exchange of words before. Even if I have, can't remember, few and far between instances la. (Actions is smth else la) Firstly not even the type of person who will blab a lot of stuff online. As in, my blog is not somewhere I release intense emotions (how to? when you are juz talking to a dead electricity-powered computer and not a living flesh-and-blood person?) now come to think of it I hardly release emotions till recently. Everything I say in my blog is true, but actually its a very watered-down, diluted version. Even the "concentrated" true version I only say to the few people who can stand the intensity...hahaz...

I tink a lot of girls go through this phrase lar... some kind of social phenomenon or smth- watch movies/read novels you will noe. Some sort of -girl- thing, along with gossip and clothes and shopping and other girl stuff. Somehow I skipped this phrase. See no such need for such stuff.

Friday, September 5, 2003 11:39 p.m.
I always like every single zhong qiu wan hui I've been to- pri. sch and here in ny, and dis year no exception :D Maybe it's the friends/sqms (both hpps and ny) and tokking, maybe because it's at night, maybe it's the fire and candles and lanterns and sparklers hee so fun everytime :)
But while still fun, I feel dis year still not as enjoyable. For one why end so early man? goodness only 8.30pm and dey chase us back liao. Last few years at least until 9 or 10 one wad :( and... hmm... dis year, like fen san until cannot fen any more manz. together at first, den everybody go gather in their closed circle of 4-6 at different locations all over the school, and it's pretty obvious. so -______- manz... shld get closer as the years go by wad, and tt is exactly wad happened- everyone get closer to only a small group. hmmmz... I tink tt happens to every batch... we shall see.

Friday, September 5, 2003 11:23 p.m.
Went w/ joe, wx and mel to kap to study phys test tml- 1st time I'm putting in so much effort for phys man. eating until jing jing you wei... den dis 2 ladies came up 2 us say want to do survey, I was thinking, fine, do and get over with it. Quite a nice survey larz honestly. Meaningful qns. Den dey started making small chat, ok, still fine. Den dey introduce demselves as some christian youth organisation, okay... still... fine... was starting to tink why dey so luo suo... want to go study suvat eqns liaoz...
Den dey start to preach and preach and preach... tell "the story" tok about Jesus and God everything and ask questions blah blah... eh... feel quite uncomfortable lorz, want them to go away but oso cannot so rude chase dem off marz... so no choice juz be polite and courteous and smile lorz... when they go off it's such a relief manz. and it's quite pushy and you MUST believe in him else you go to hell that kind of thing... *shudder...
no offence to anybody horz... christian or catholic or some other religion, juz expressing my own feelings... juz like I dun like it when pple force me to accept their thinking and convert I wun force anyone to adopt my thinking... *sigh...

Thursday, September 4, 2003 11:22 p.m.
Yesterday... so qi4... half the squad wait hours upon hours juz for one single person... so kek manz... not like we whole day free to wait ken? got hw to do one, got test to study one ken?

k maybe some things were quite relevant, we honestly made some mistakes, but, dunno why but feel like sometimes they are just nit-picking our stuff lorz... this is a very imperfect world populated by imperfect people yarh? we set an ideal goal and work very very hard towards it, but nothing can be fair and perfect and ideal 100%. Oh well nvm. a lot of hc events are becoming funner and funner- actually quite excited :D

And... aiyohz... next time be more self-aware... wear a skirt sit on a chair, den we sit on the floor, it's... quite uncomfortable for us larz. for 1.5 hrs some more. Didn't dare tell... but dis kind of things shld noe... no need elab much liaoz

Monday, September 1, 2003 09:17 p.m.
Hrrm... sorry s2s, nv go for e handball comp... wasn't there so can't really comment... nvm la... *patpat u all tried ur best k?

Sunday, August 31, 2003 07:37 p.m.
Sqms had physics lecture on Sat (for 2 hrs... goodness!) so I brought sec 1s for rain-o-shine together w/ wan xin. At first we thot only me and jas were free, so jas was to bring the sec 2s (~FiNe... relax, shout 4 wad?) and I bring the sec 1s den wx call me at night sae she's coming along too :)

Yay! Dey got 2nd, good job :) even though they only pia this comp last minute, quality not bad :) nice costumes, nice storyline (but cannot figure out-hahaz) their first comp too. They were quite good, v. supportive of other units (cheer and cheer and cheer!) + responsive + quite respectful... and oso quite ke3 ai4. :D impression of them changed liao

btw, the vsnp room is very neat. They only have the very essential items there- campcraft equipment, drill equipment, their taekwondo equipment, trophies, tt's about all. oh yar and one very cool laptop ;) We prob have to learn from them- for one, our np room too many personal/sqd belongings liao. but now at least revamp den throw out lots of stuff, very good *applause*

k... noe that some people think we are changing too fast, throwing away lots of memories, but... some things we throw out nobody has any memories of them lor, like the 1980s trophies? hello??? we not even born? and pure junk like rusty chains, 100+ hangers of all colours and sizes, toaster which can't even open, pressure lamps that don't work, hurricane lamps we don't know how to use? now np room is much neater and more hygienic clean fans, no big dustballs and no silverfish nests. :)

Sunday, August 31, 2003 07:32 p.m.
Decided that the np part of my blog needs a new look too :) and I think this layout fits fine... the grassy grassy feeling... campcraft... hahaz.